How do you leave the past behind to start a new future in the present???
I've met a WONDERFUL guy & because I'm so used to being treated like I'm worthless & have come to believe it through the years, I can't seem to let this guy in. :(
I shut him out, put him off & accuse him of being a liar when he tells me he's in love with me, wants to marry me, thinks I'm great & fantastic. I mean, here's a guy that wants me to meet his family, wants me to see how he lives, has my picture as his desktop wallpaper on his computer, keeps a picture of me by his bed, tells me I can tell him anything & everything no matter how little it may be, encourages me to call or text him anytime, any place, wants to see me as much as he can get, has waited patiently to have sex with me for three months now... he's great.
I want to let him in so much. I want to fall deeply in love with him as he is with me. I started to & when he recently mentioned going out to look at rings, I was all for it. I felt exactly as he does. Then a few days later, I got distant & weird & the reason why is because, with my history, I can't believe that anyone would feel I'm good enough for them to love. I can't believe that anyone would want me for me without a hidden agenda that will hurt me. :(
How am I supposed to get through this before I chase this keeper away?
- Asked by irishize
, A Thinker, Female, 36-45, Who Cares?