|Dating / 5:00 PM - Sunday December 13, 2009|
My parents never showed me loved, so I don't know what a healthy relationship is. Help please.
I'm 29. My parents never really showed love to me growing up. I grew up in a physically and emotionally abusive home. My father was abusive to me physically, my mother was neglectful and emotionally cold. I saw my parents fight alot too. I have really been emotionally scarred. I spent my younger dating years desperately searching for love and getting involved with controlling, manipulative guys. I've never experienced a healthy, loving relationship, so I don't even know if one is possible. I'm at a point in my life where I've isolated myself from almost everyone because I'm tired of being used by people. I don't let people get close to me because I don't trust. I want to love, but my mind and my body won't let me. I become physically sick and nervous at the thought of vulnerability. I cry sometimes, because I feel like life is just one long, painful existence. I don't know what to do anymore. I honestly hate my parents for what they put me through from childhood to even now. I know I'm responsible for my life now, but if I was never given proper love and direction (and I don't even really know how to recognize love), what chance do I really have at a healthy, happy life?
- Asked by A Thinker, Female, 29-35
I'm in the same situation as you.I thought i'd just say Hi and let you know you are not alone.