i get aroused by naked women
sometimes, when i see some random clips or videos or near naked or naked women, i get turned on and want to see more.
i am in a committed relationship with a man and..that's as much as i need to say
i enjoy girl on girl porn (on the very rare occasion that i watch it and masturbate) or even just girl on nothing porn! i don't enjoy seeing penis' or men during the sexual acts because they just look nasty and horny and not sensual. i would never tell my boyfriend about this because im afraid he would suggest we watch it together or he wants to see it, and i am VERY insecure about my body, especially if another hotter woman is present in the video and my mind will go elsewhere (does he like her bigger boobs better? she's skinner than me, what if he's only aroused by her/the video and not me, etc.)
whatever the reason for this, my possible reasons for this is that:
1. i find women's bodies to be much more beautiful than men's bodies
2. i secretly wish i had bodies like the women in porn
3. i think about how i can do what they are doing, for my man to pleasure him and keep our sex life interesting, i'm learning in a way as well.
right now, i WANT to watch some porn, but then i feel guilty by not telling my bf but i have semi-valid reasons, right? I know he doesn't watch porn, he said he has me, and he feels it's disrespectful to me.
Someone explain this to me? or give me advice?
Update: February 14, 2009.
Thanks for all the fast responses!
Now, why did you hope that I was having oral sex? If it's the age, I'm about to turn 22, not barely 18. And I do know my body very well including during sex because I love sex! I believe myself to have sexually developed very well, I'm not as naive or innocent as I seem. And for the record, my boyfriend does not watch porn anymore, I can bet my life on that, as hard as it is to believe (and believe me, it took me a while to believe that too!)
As far as my personal development and self love? that is not up to par. I know I have to work on loving my body and getting past my insecurities, I've always known that. With your advice, I do plan on bringing it up to him sometime when I am at a better place with my body. No use to pleasing him with this new found aspect of my sexual life when I'm screaming my head off and my vagina is burning with anger and jealousy. :)
Thanks again, and Happy Valentine's Day!
- Asked by A Thinker, Female, 26-28, Who Cares?